MESSAGE # 0002
BY: Kevin (reply to question from "Kaila")
POSTED: 09/25/00
SUBJECT: Suicide/Sin/Forgiveness
REF CODE: msg0002
Started by: kaila
Sent: 9/2/2000 10:51 pm
What do you all think about suicide for a believer? Would I still go to heaven? What about just praying for the Lord to take my life, or give me a fatal illness? I have just messed things up so badly that it's hard to see any other way out.
Because of past sins, my family is suffering now, my kids have very little respect for me, and I don't blame my husband for being disgusted.
We are now at a crisis point financially, again because of me and my stupid behavior. Whatever little trust has been bult back up is about to be destroyed, and I don't know what to do about it. The only thing I heard from the Lord was "Trust Me" - at least I think it was Him. But it still seems as if everyone would be a lot better off without me.
I have just gotten out of the hospital again, and I know everyone in the family is pretty tired of my being sick all the time. Unless the Lord works a true miracle, it's about to get a whole lot worse financially, too. I'm sure I have touched people in my life, but I think mostly for the worse, not better. I'm 51, and that's awfully old to start all over with no family and no income.
From: cutie4u_4ever23
Sent: 9/8/2000 5:05 am
dear kaila,
I cried when i read your questions cause it really reminded me of me. I was in so much sin and adultery and all that bad stuff that I felt I would be doing God, my family and my daughter and myself a favor by killing myself and I asked God numerous times to take my life from me and well im still here and it is almost 2 years later. God has a plan and purpose for you and there is no sin that God will not forgive other than blasphemy. Please kaila your life is very precious and you will be somebody and you are already somebody. I feel your heart and pain and I will keep you in my prayers.
Dear God I feel you have burdened my heart right now cause i was not going to say a prayer but you know I am crying out for her mind and body to be loosened in Jesus name. Show her your plan for her Father God. Show her that she is somebody special in your eyes and that you will take away all her pain and struggle if she just keeps her eyes and head and faith in you Father God. We all make mistakes Father and you forgive us for them if we ask and God I do know Father that she is in pain you can feel it in the questions that she has asked and I pray Father God to protect her mind from the thoughts that she is having. I rebuke you satan in the Name of Jesus that you get out of her mind. Father God free her. Take away her pains In Jesus Name. AMen.
please if you ever need to really talk email me at [ADDRESS HIDDEN]. I went through this when I was 20 and now Im 23 and I know that God will and is able to pull you through this.
God Bless you
Nissa
From: K-Man
Sent: 9/25/2000 6:08 am
Dear Kaila,
Scripture teaches us that blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is the only "unforgiveable" sin, but suicide is, indeed, a sin. Christ can forgive all sin, but think about this: forgiveness requires repentance. The Lord will forgive any sin if you repent of it, but how can you repent if you are dead? Please, dear sister, don't make an eternally-fatal mistake. I know you're feeling really depressed and worthless right now, but the Lord has a special plan for your life. Please believe me, there is ALWAYS a better way than to take your own life.
I am a pastor and guitarist for a Christian band. One of our songs says:
"She don't know where to start (Nowhere to start)/Lost child running on a star-filled night/Trying to show her the Way (Jesus is the Way)/You know you're gonna fall/Just can't tell which way..."
Sooner or later we all have to fall, Kaila. Sooner or later we all have to surrender. The only question is: "which way?" Either you fall into the trap that Satan has set for you, the trap that the world will tell you is okay... or you fall into the loving and forgiving arms of Jesus Christ. We all have to make tough choices in life, but the one with which you're struggling is the most important, for "what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul, and what will a man give in exchange for his soul?" You are in my prayers, dear sister. Please make the right choice.
<><}}}0>
